A week into January I had decided the year of 2017 would be one without social media (Is this a social media? If so, due to my single digit amount of followers I’ll disregard it as such haha) The purpose of it was to start living for myself! When I was using Instagram & Facebook daily -I intentionally decided to never create a Snapchat to avoid falling deeper into the abyss of living for the entertainment of others- I realized that many times, when I had important events coming up, I was already thinking about what kind of pictures I wanted to post and with what caption, so that everyone else can see it! That’s just sad! I also found that I was comparing myself to others quite often. Where are they in their career path? Should I be there? What are they up to? How are they traveling so much? They seem happy with where they are, am I? And it wasn’t only a comparison, but sometimes a secret competition where I was possibly the only one aware of it. But it’s very likely those I felt I was competing with were secretly competing with others! As I share my reasons for my year long social media break I find that many people have experienced the same mind games. Yes! That’s what it is! A mind game where you begin to doubt, question, compare & compete. Personally, I couldn’t deal with it anymore. For once, I want to experience life without concerning myself about pictures and perfect poses. I want to rejoice in my travel experiences with myself. I want to share the important dates and events with those that are involved in my life. Simply put, I want to live in the moment!
I’m still working through some things though, like actually wanting to take pictures at all. I no longer feel that urge to capture a moment through a lens because, well, I don’t have to share it with anyone! But that’s disheartening because these 2017 memories are for me. So, I decided to buy an album and fill it with printed pictures! I’ll title it: 2017, The Year of Secrecy lol. My memories, all to myself and to share with those that care to ask.
I totally see the advantages of social media like being able to easily talk to my good friend from Peru, which is now an almost impossible task, but I think in the year of 2017 the disadvantages had the final verdict. I consider myself to be a confident woman who is content of where she stands. I am not where I intend to be, but I am making my way there. I do not need to hear the voice of doubt whispering from my iPhone screen. I live for God alone and as I walk in His will, He will speak blessings over me, guide me and direct my path.